Thursday, August 28, 2008

There's someone in my head, but it's not me...

You lie...i try hard to believe you but still you lie..every time you are lying you tell me its the last time...bu i know this is a lie as well...but i still want to believe you..last time i remember you told me u wont lie anymore...
I have two personalities one evil, one more evil...my more evil one bet the evil one that you were lying..it won...weird how bad is always good...how there is always a shade of grey in every rainbow...maybe im the only one who sees it..maybe i am the only one who's supposed to...why the hell am i the only one who's supposed to read between the lines and understand everything...why do i have to see the deeper uglier side of the fairy tale...why cant i just believe..its just a fairy tale..imagination..why must i need to go to the core..and see the rotten truth..maggots and worms crawling behind plastic smiles of love and concern..blood and filth behind behind every embrace...dark shadows in an orgy behind every warm kiss..IS HELL HOT???well cant be hotter than the rage that builds inside me, everytime i know its fake..
Two heads come close,
i mock in derisive laughter...
Two lips embrace,
and i know it's the lamb to the slaughter...
I am free..yet bound in chains of love and affection...chains of concern and care..chains of hatred and revenge...chains that rust and corrode...chains that promised the future...that now engulf me in their coils...
Wish i could be fake too...laugh,laugh out loud with the world...ignoring the tear at the corner of her eye..the pain in her heart...
"Stab 'em with your steely knives
but you just cant kill the beast..."
How apt...
Does'nt really matter...
I believed you...
and you LIED...